A Mish Mash Birthday

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birthday, happiness, life, RIP, sadness, tejaswee Rao

So It was my birthday yesterday…. and the whole day the thing that was running on my mind was how is that you wish yourself a Happy Birthday when all that is running in your mind is a the fact that a  lovely girl so full of promise and a life and girl who wanted to live long and enjoy life 😦  was taken away by God… May her soul rest in peace and May God give IHM and family the strength required to go through this, though right now I am in no mood to trust God. If there was someone like him would this have happened? Life is so f^&king unfair sometimes.

But as the super strong IHM says life has to go on, I also went through my day with the usual celebrations with N and my mom and sis pushing me a little for it. I made a cake for myself (which I forgot to click picture of)… mixed fruit flavour and it came out super… Even I was surprised with the softness of the cake 😉 certainly one of the best I have made. It was polished off when some friends came for lunch today.

And the only part of the day which I was actually looking forward to was “Peepli Live”. N and my sis had booked tickets for the movie for me and N saying she will take care of Ojas while we enjoy the movie and damn just before we were ready to go he started crying and did a huge vomit and with that were drowned my hopes of watching the movie too 😦 He is fine now… slept exactly 20 mins after we were supposed to go and kept on sleeping for the next 3 hrs… life isn’t fair I think is the key take away from this birthday

Night was the family dinner that got planned with my mom, sis, my sister in laws family and also a N’s cousin who was here was US. It was a nice dinner where we all chatted away for glory ( BTW on that note “Taste of Rampur” which is listed as of the best North Indian in Times Food guide of last year sucks… might do a detailed review later but as of now my word is dont waste ur money there).

So all in all it was a decent birthday but somehow it just wasnt the same. It was as if there is a air of sadness all around me. Even if I was laughing it was a laughter from the heart, Tejaswee you will live in our hearts forever. And the next year of my life will be dedicated to u 🙂 Of staying strong and positive just as you were. Isnt it strange that the person who you havent even met once leaves such a lasting impression on you and your life sometimes.

Ok lets end the post in a happy and postive note just how she would have liked… by dedicating a song to myself…. Pari Hoon Main 😉

Happiness Is…

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happiness, small joys of life

If u think title is stolen from Swaram’s post who stole it from Titaxy’s post… think again… chor ke chor ghar chori ko chori nahin kahte dost 😀

So happiness is

• When u get ready to go to somewhere and the little boy in your life comes and tells u “Mumma u are looking sweet, very pretty” 🙂 atleast on the one of the boys gives me compliments now 😀

• When you are fed up with the Windows Vista in your laptop but cant change it to any other OS because u hate piracy, N comes to u and suddenly tells u that all MSDN software are free for personal use for the employees of the organization he works for… As a result u have a shiny Windows 7 CD installer CD lying right next to u and the installation begins as soon as the backup taking is over 😀

• When you suddenly find yourself depressed for no reason and without thinking much head out of the house driving to the nearest supermarket thinking if nothing u will pick up some veggies and find out that there is nice LUSH counter which has opened up there.. needless to say the wallet some thousand rupees lighter bag heavier by a shampoo and conditioner, you are very happy girl

• When you come back after finishing some chores on a very hot afternoon and open the fridge to find a sole chilled beer on the shelf… Bliss I tell u 😀

• is stealing a gems or two from your son’s bowl and then realizing that he can figure out the loss of even a single gem from his bowlful…. and happiness is also just looking at the colors of this picture…

• When while searching for a book, you find a letter from a very old friend whom u haven’t spoken for like years now…. and reading the letter brings a strong yearning to talk to him, u know he has moved to US years back but still dial the Delhi landline number written the lon etter, only to hear his voice on the other side and the fact that he is in India vacationing… u speak for about an hour without any hesitation the call only ending with his plan to visit Bangalore with family fixed 😀

• And I save the best for the last… happiness is when u haven’t seen the face of the gym for about 2 months now because of the neck pain and then with great courage you step on the weighing scale expecting a disaster and voila what u see if what u don’t believe… your weight is still the same... 🙂  its time to hit the gym again

So come tell me, whats happiness for you?