Dear Mum and Dad,
When I read the list of people I have to write the letters to I knew this one is gonna be one of the toughest ones to write. Also it’s funny because this is the first ever letter I am writing to you, stayed at home with you guys till I started working in Bangalore and by that time, cellphones and phones had made permanence in our lives.
As with every parent-child relationship, ours has gone through major ups and downs too. I have worshiped you guys, I have loved you guys, I have hated you guys too and now I am at a stage in life where I can say I understand you guys.
But today what I want to tell you is that I am scared of the role reversals which are happening. Two years ago when I had to rush to Delhi because both of you were not keeping too well it stuck me that you guys are finally ageing and will need care from our side. It’s not a happy thought, not because I don’t want to take care of you or not because I want to run away from my responsibility. I will stand to that but it’s not a happy thought from the point of view of emotions.
I want to always be the little girl that you take care of, the idea of me taking care of you instead is so heartbreaking. It means that I have to grow up, it means that I can’t be your baby forever. This isn’t fair I tell you. I love you guys and I want you guys to be healthy forever so that I can be a baby, I know I am being selfish here but then if I don’t be selfish you guys whom will I be selfish with.
So dear mom-dad, please take your medicines and vitamins regularly and let me the tantrum throwing baby around
Lots of love
I know exactly what you mean…and I go through this feeling quite often even though I am far away and have hardly been there to take care if needed. (which honestly feels worse) How I wish I could be there always yet remain their little kid forever.
I just came back to read this again…missing my parents 😦
awwww big tight hugs bharti
Shailaja/ The Moving Quill said:
Beautiful, Monika. So very true.
Heart warming post. I can relate to this post coz I go through this emotion most of their time. But, I guess that’s life and we gotta grow in this world.
I guess we all go through this to a certain extent depending on how much of brat is still alive in us 😉
Amrit tripathy said:
This is so damn true for all we girls.. truly.. i cant beg to differ with any of the thoughts you have jotted down.. with any of the feelings that you have shared with all your readers.. with everything that you have felt, think and are going through… truly a warm-touchy and straight from heart note..may your parents stay healthy and hearty and for a long time.
thanks Amrita and warm hugs